Saturday, July 31, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
We had the terrific heat again yesterday and thunderstorms last night. Today is to be much nicer and I am looking forward to it.
My sympathy and love is extended to my dear friend Carole today upon the death of her brother. My prayers are with her and her family. Have a safe trip. My thoughts are also with my friend Jenny upon the loss of her dear friends Curtis. There are two new guardian angels in heaven.
I am on my way soon to get my hair cut. I haven’t found anyone I like yet and I am beginning to get discouraged. I am giving this one her second try and if I don’t like it that will be the end of her. I sure do miss my Sherri who knew just exactly how I liked my hair cut.
There is nothing new happening here. I miss my daughter while she has Bible School this week. No lunches out for me this week. :-( I will have to make up for that next week.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
You are the one I can call anytime, day or night,
You are the one who understands where I’ve been,
Where I am and where I am going.
You are the one who’s laughed with me,
cried with me and always, always
stood by me.
You are my dear and loving sister…
my very precious friend.
~ Renee Duvall~
Monday, July 26, 2010
It is the start of a brand new week. It is a lovely clear day to be in the mid to upper 80s and no rain in sight. The heat wave is back tomorrow.
My daughter will be busy every day this week with Bible School. She loves working with ‘her kids.’ I am planning to try some more driving downtown to see if I can conquer the one way streets. It would be really nice if I could find my way to the post office and library by myself. This is a real challenge for a small town gal. Champaign had no one way streets that I am aware of and that city is almost 4 times larger than this city. I drove there all over with no problem. I just have to build up my confidence and tackle these chopped up one way streets.
Blagojevich’s trial should wind up today. It will be very interesting to see how long the jury deliberates before they find him guilty. Our present governor is no better. He gave all of his top aides raises this spring. I am voting for Brady in November. It is about time for an honest governor as there hasn’t been one in Illinois for a long time. There, I broke my main rule of no politics discussed in my blog. LOL I suspect I will have a lot more to say on this in the next few days.
I need to get my day moving along as I am such a busy person. ;-) I hope this is a blessed week for us all.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
not really, I just liked the sound of that. It has been staying unbearably hot with miserable humidity.
Thunderboomies all around. So far this evening the heavy rain has missed us. The heat seems to be widespread this summer covering most of the states including Canada. It will be snowing here soon enough so I will grin and bear it.
Now this is boring! My WV sis wanted to see what my Kroger store and surroundings looked like, so all of you except sis, close your eyes for a little bit. I didn’t realize till I took this picture that it is open 24 hours. Not that I go out much after dark anyway. ;-)
OK, you can open your eyes now. It has started thundering and lightning again. I have started to expect a thunderstorm each day and I just keep right on with what I am doing. So far the power has only flickered a few times.
I had my niece over for supper this evening, green beans with new potatoes and bacon and pork tenderloin sandwiches. I got the tenderloin at Kroger this morning. It was already breaded with some kind of parmesan cheese coating. It was delicious so I will have to watch for that in the store again. I really would like to know how it was done. I fixed it according to directions in hot oil and none of the breading came off. Next time I think I might fix it in the oven spraying the pan and top of the loin with cooking spray. Too hot to turn the oven on today though.
Wow, just re-reading this post I bored myself. LOL I hope you all have a lovely Sunday. Stay safe and be happy!! That is a direct order from me to you.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
that is the question. Blagojevich elected to not testify yesterday at his corruption trial. Was this a risky move or not? I have been reading about it and listening to it on radio and TV. Everyone has a different opinion about this. Remember what opinions are like, we all have one. It definitely will effect the closing arguments on both sides I think. I would have loved to have been on that jury. I think the case should have been tried in downstate Illinois because we are the ones who have been the most effected by his corruption. By that statement I just said which way I would vote. My fervent hope is that he joins George Ryan in his cell. Maybe the two of them together can figure out a way to clean up the financial mess our state is in because of them.
And now for that mundane, boring topic called weather. We have received over 3 inches of rain here in the last two days. I had the misfortune of being caught in the downpour yesterday afternoon and getting thoroughly soaked. Now that really did put me out of sorts. More rain predicted for today.
Paul, I was glad to see you post again today. I am also happy you have been getting some rain. It is nice to share the wealth. ;-)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Wednesday used to be rant day. Things are not the same on spaces. Many have left for greener pastures. I too have a greener pasture plus several other blogs. I find it hard enough to post on one blog every day, let alone several.
Some folks never post anything original, just stuff from other sources and that is OK . I applaud the ones that are courageous enough to let a little bit of their daily life come through in their posts. I am not asking you to divulge any family secrets and I definitely am not interested in reading about anything compromising, however I am capable of doing research on the internet myself.
One of the best examples of an interesting blog is written by my friend Paul. He lives in the Boston area and through his descriptive words and pictures I feel like I know that area. Another is Carole who writes from the heart and keeps us enthralled with the daily shenanigans of Miss Catt. I often refer to Carole as my twin because we share the same birthday. We have many traits in common and in many ways we are different. For example, she has a good hair day almost every day while I never have a good hair day. Paul has an excellent blog on blog spot now. It is http://jumpingoutthewindows.blogspot.com/. Carole also is at blog spot at http://ramblingon-ramblingon.blogspot.com/. You will find me in my greener pasture at http://bmariede.blogspot.com/.
I just had a cute old fellow come to my door a few minutes ago. He was bringing me my paper that wasn’t delivered this morning. He was a doll. He had curly white hair and wore blue jean shorts with suspenders and a white Tshirt. Reminded me of one of those people you see in an ad for Swiss chocolate. I was having a nice chat with him when the phone rang. It was my sister in WV. She told me to hang up quickly and go see if he had left yet. LOL!!! Thanks Rae, she and Hugh are always looking out for my best interests.
After a day of heavy rain yesterday we are in line for more rain today. I can take it; I am tough.
There! You just got a little glimpse of my life here in the heart of Illinois. I am looking forward to a little glimpse into your life.
Monday, July 19, 2010
This picture was taken at a friend of my sister’s house in Maryland this past week. Notice the 8 points.
Does this tell you that I have nothing to say of any importance today??
Stay safe and be happy!!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
for the response that I got from yesterday’s post. I thought you might like to hear a little more about Mary Jo. She was born in Peoria and still lives in Springfield. My daughter and I are planning to make a trip there soon to visit with her.
I found this old picture of Jim and me taken with Mary Jo’s children. Brings back precious memories. The picture is not good quality at all but I love it.
I hope you all are having a relaxing weekend. We are under a heat advisory again for the next few days so I am chilling out.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time
to clean the house and mop the floors.
The preceding verse was part of an email message that I received this morning. I was reminded of a friend I had when my daughter was in high school.
Her name was Mary Jo and she and her family lived across the street from me. Mary Jo’s husband was the football coach and Driver’s Ed teacher at our local high school. He was dearly loved by faculty and students alike. They had two children, Troy and Toni. They were actually misnamed because Troy was the spitting image of his dad (Tony) and Toni was blond haired and blue eyed like her mother. Toni was 2 years old and had a cyst come on her forehead which required major surgery. I helped by caring for her brother at this time.
I loved those kids. At that time in my life I was obsessed with keeping my house spotless. No special reason as it won’t make a tiddleypoop worth of difference in 100 years. When I would visit with Mary Jo in her home I was amazed at how she managed her children and her house. Her house was clean but a bit untidy. I would often catch her sitting on the floor reading a book to her children while there were dishes to do in the sink. Mary Jo was diabetic and her children were precious to her. She had these children against the advice of her doctor
Her husband got a better job at a larger high school in Springfield and they moved away. I was busy working a full time job and we only sporadically kept in touch.
Tony died at age 39 of pancreatitis. He was diagnosed, hospitalized and died 2 weeks later. Jim and I went to the visitation and it was heartbreaking.
The years passed and their son Troy graduated from University and his first coaching job was as coach in my little town. Talk about déjà when one day I opened the front door and there was my dear friend Mary Jo. She had come to help her son move into his new home, and that was how I heard the news. I was able to visit with Mary Jo each time she came to town to visit her son.
And, the moral of this true story, is to live each day to the fullest, don’t be afraid to tell family and friends how special they are to you and trust in God to guide you in your future.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
and we are under a severe thunderstorm watch (number 479) today. It is so humid it takes your breath away when you go out. And, I did go out this morning. I picked up my daughter and she went with me downtown. I am practicing driving downtown trying to get used to all of the one way streets. There are a lot of them and they are all chopped up.
Then we grocery shopped and later went to Avanti’s where we had lasagna with green salad and homemade bread for lunch. It was great. I love Italian food. I purchased a new sweeper at K*Mart. It is still in the trunk of my car as I am waiting for my son-in-law to come over and carry the box in. I hope it doesn’t require much putting together. I have already put together several things I bought since I moved here. I really would prefer that things come already put together.
I see my mail lady is coming so I am going in the kitchen to get her a diet Pepsi. I really feel sorry for the ones that have to be outside in the heat and humidity. I am in the house now hoping the air conditioner keeps chugging away.
I really have nothing to say today, just touching base with you all. A note for Kerrie in Australia. “I will not leave spaces entirely as long as I have loyal friends on spaces such as you.”
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
It is hotter than a firecracker today. The heat index a while ago was 106. The heat index reading for tonight remains at 98 – 103. The dew point is in the upper 70s. Of course we are under a heat advisory. I ventured out this morning for a little while but that was it. I did stick my head out the door to get my mail this afternoon.
Speaking of getting your mail in a mailbox, that is something new for me. My husband and I had a post office box always. It just was a handy thing to have as we both worked full time jobs and we could always pick up the mail at our convenience. Now I know the approximate time my mail will be here. My regular carrier is a lady that seems to walk 90 miles an hour. She is here at 1:48 PM each day give or take 5 minutes one way or another When a substitute person delivers it has been as late as 5:30 PM. I have decided that I like my mail delivered to my door. Now the postal service is wanting to eliminate Saturday mail service. Hey, please don’t take away Saturday delivery, I like it!
I am contemplating the need to clean this place again. Seems I am too busy running around to spend much time doing that. I need to purchase a new sweeper as mine will not stay upright since I used it the last time. It actually fell down on my foot which was not a very nice thing to do and it elicited a few not so nice words from my mouth. Now I have to decide where to go to purchase a new sweeper. If I were closer to Sam’s I would go there. As it is, I am thinking of closing my account there because it is located in Peoria and I don’t want to fight the traffic there. So I have K Mart, Walmart, Bergners or Sears to choose from. But not for the next few days as it is going to be very hot for the next few days.
I hope you all are sitting in front of the AC enjoying a nice tall cool one. Stay safe and be happy!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Getting things done...
The days are moving by. Not very quickly. It is dark when I get up in the morning and dark by 4:30. We are past the winter solstice so the days are getting a tiny bit longer. It is time for me to move forward.
My sister Rae is babysitting me all of the way from WV by telephone several times a day. My next door neighbors find reasons to call and stop by. My son calls me just about every night extending an invitation for me to visit him for a while.
Right now I am just staying put. I have had some people inquiring about the truck. I have cleaned it out and the precious hat has been put in a place of honor.
I am getting legal things straightened out. I hope. Everybody wants a copy of everything.
I need to get to the auto dealer and get an oil change, and just get the car checked.
This is enough rambling for today. I'll be stopping by to visit you all over the next few days. Thank you for your loving kindness and support.
I am trying...
I am trying so hard to put things in their proper order and try to get on with my life. The least little thing brings tears to my eyes. I went out to start the truck a few days ago and there was Jim's slouch hat laying on the driver's side. That just about finished me off. A few days before he died he had me help him to the truck as he wanted to drive it one last time. He did drive around town for about 10 minutes and then we had to come home as he was tired. He left his hat laying in the seat. I will have to get the truck cleaned out to sell one of these days but I hate so to move the hat.
On the Saturday before he died he had me get out decorations for the window, the Christmas tree and the fiber optic angels. I was tired and wanted to wait until the next day to do it. However, I did get them out and he put the lights up around the window and put up the Christmas tree. I couldn't force myself to turn on those lights until last night at which time I lit the angels, window and tree. I figured I owed that much to Jim as he had gone to so much effort to do a little bit of decorating. If you have read my blog at Christmas you know he so loved to decorate the whole outside with so many lights it was blinding. I sat down in his chair and just looked at them. It was beautiful!
I am still trying to get all legal aspects tied up. There have been so many things to do it has boggled my mind. I am not in the blogging spirit right now so forgive me if my posts are sporadic. I will be back to posting and visiting regularly when my mind settles down.
Wishing you all a blessed Christmas.
I have been alone in the house for two days now... I am sitting at my computer drinking my coffee at 6 in the morning. This is not anything new. What is new is knowing that Jim is not in his chair for me to go and check on every 2 or 3 minutes. I can't hold his hand and tell him things will get better. I feel his presence everywhere.
I am not alone. God is with me too.
So long for a little while...
Jim's memorial service was yesterday morning. It was beautiful. There was a nice luncheon served at the church afterwards. I said goodbye to my soulmate for a little while.
My sister from WV has been helping me get my affairs in order. I have gone through a long list of things and I have another long list of things to do. I don't know what I would have done without her. They are leaving for home tomorrow and I will be alone for the first time since Jim has been gone. The true grieving begins tomorrow when I will be alone.
I love you all for your thoughts, prayers, and comments. May God Bless you all richly!
Today I lost the dearest friend that I will ever have. Tomorrow would have been our anniversary.
Jim passed away this afternoon at 3:15 PM at St James Hospital close to Chicago. My heart is broken.
Thank you all for the kind thoughts and prayers you shared with us these past months. Bless you all.
Update for Jim...
This will be my last post for awhile as I have many things to get done.
The oncologist told Jim today that he could do nothing more for him. We have been referred to a specialist in Chicago at Rush Hospital that deals in clinical trial type cancer meds. This appt is Nov 30th. This is our last hope. The doctor told us today that as it stands now there is about 2 months left to us. Very hard news for us to take during the holiday season. I feel very grateful to have had Jim for 51 years (this Dec 2nd). I am asking if each of you will remember Jim in your prayers and ask God to help us to be strong.
Up and at 'em at 7 AM...
Jim had an appointment with the cardiologist at 7 this morning. That meant we were up and on the road at a little after 6. We didn't find out much; just one med increased. Tomorrow we see the oncologist. It really amazes me that one doctor doesn't let the other one know what they are doing, thus you have to wait around for a lot of piddleyfarting (sorry, I couldn't resist that as my daddy used to say that all of the time) to find out anything.
I am off to the beauty parlor at 11 for my monthly visit. Not that much can be done..... ;o)
"The place where the sun isn't shining will be illuminated in a few hours."
Another day with no sun...
but at least it didn't rain.
Jim is doing a bit better each day. He is sleeping better and eating better. Thank you God!
I cleaned the house today, did laundry, etc. Now I am ready to sit down and rest awhile. Tomorrow I hope the sun is shining brightly. All things are easier to handle if the sun is shining.
If Jim is feeling well enough on Thanksgiving we will go to our daughter and son-in-laws. I hope we can. I will make our daughter's favorite, cherry cheese pie.
Have a good weekend everyone.
"If you trim back the bloom that has flowered; a new bud will most certainly form."
Life is a struggle for those who want more than life itself...
Yesterday Jim saw the oncologist. His blood count was good although the platelets are still a bit low. There will be no decisions made on anything until he regains some strength and his kidney function improves. He still is very tired. We each got a flu shot yesterday and today he has aches and pains everywhere.
I saw my doctor this morning. My blood pressure was better but not enough to suit her. The main reason she was unhappy is because my creatine level is rising. I guess I will have to try and calm myself down and work on exercising more.
The weather has been awful beyond belief here for the last couple of days. Icy cold rain that seems never ending.
When you've trusted God and walked His way
When you've felt his hand lead you day by day
But your steps now take you another way...
When you've made your plans and they've gone awry
When you've tried your best and there's no more try
When you've failed yourself and you don't know why...
When you've told your friends what you plan to do
When you've trusted them and they didn't come through
And now you're all alone and it's up to you...
When you've failed your kids and they're grown and gone
When you've done your best but it's turned out wrong
And now your grandchildren have come along...
When you've prayed to God so you'll know his will
When you've prayed and prayed and you don't know still
When you want to stop cause you've had your fill...
When you think you're finished and want to quit
When you've bottomed out in life's deepest pit
When you've tried and tried to get out of it...
When the year has been long and successes few
When December comes and you're feeling blue
God gives a January just for you...
Starting over means "Victories Won"
Starting over means "A Race Well Run"
Starting over means "God's Will Done"
Don't just sit there...
I will try to post an update while Jim is resting.
Jim is worn out today. He went with me to Meijer for a few groceries, (he rode in the chair) then we went across the street to the buffet for lunch. Then home where he promptly went to bed.
Jim is eating better and sleeping better. He is able to walk with a cane and around the house without one, so that is an improvement. Next Tuesday we see the oncologist again. Decisions to make.
The weather is dreary today and we are to have a cold front go through with a chance of snow showers in the morning.
I wish everyone a peaceful weekend. Enjoy being alive and if you are in good health say a prayer of Thanksgiving.
This has been a "It's great to be alive" day. Thanks to the good Lord above.
Jim finally is feeling a bit better and is eating better.
It is 64 degrees today.
My younger brother and his fiancee (how in the world do I spell that?) came to see us today. They brought me a new Epson printer that does everything. It reads cards, prints on CDs and DVDs, etc. One of the nicest gifts I've ever received because it was presented to me with love. My old printer is 5 years old and does none of these things even though it still works fine.
We had Pizza Hut Buffet for lunch and you know how I love pizza. It was so good to see Jim eat, better than he has for weeks. Thanks Bill and Karen for that treat too!
I hope wherever you are the sun is shining and pizza is on the menu served with an extra helping of love.
A quiet Saturday at home...
Jim and I have spent a quiet day mostly just resting. We watched a miracle as Illinois scored 10 points against Ohio State.
How wonderful to be out of the hospital room.
My very first friend I made on the net has just started her space. Rose is no novice when it comes to web sites. That is how I met her 9 years ago when I got my first PC. She had a beautiful stationery site that I visited. You all know how much I love classic country music and what a Jones fan I am. Imagine my surprise when I saw George Jones stationery. I emailed her my thanks and we have been friends ever since. Thank you Rose!
My friends in the blogging world have been such a comfort to me during Jim's illness. You have all gathered around me and held me up when I needed it and helped me to be strong! Thank you!
Jim is home with me...
My dearest friends. I am just now on the computer for the first time in over a week. I spent day and night at the hospital. Jim has survived dialysis twice, heart problems and 10 units of blood. Tonight he came home with me. When we went in the hospital a week ago last Wednesday I was afraid that he wouldn't be coming home again. Today the nurses called him a miracle. There will be no more chemo unless the doctor comes up with a kinder version. This salvage chemo is a killer and the doctor himself said it was too much for Jim.
His kidney function is improving. Today it was 3.4 (creatine). On Saturday it was 5.9. It should be 1 or below. Last Saturday morning I received word that Jim's sister in Florida passed away. The doctor's told me that I couldn't tell him as his heart was misbehaving. Finally yesterday I told him. I had kept that inside me for almost a week and I was becoming a total emotional wreck. It was heartbreaking for him and he just looked at me and said that he wondered why she hadn't called all week.
The power of prayer is awesome. Thank you all!!
Rose, my dear friend, it was so good to talk to you on the phone last night. I am glad you got a space and I am coming to visit it right now.
Monday, July 12, 2010
and soon another week will be gone. It amazes me how fast time goes. I need to get better organized so that I can make better use of my time.
I have been busy today. This morning I did laundry for a couple of hours and made a trip to County Market and Kroger both. I really didn’t need anything but I ended up spending quite a chunk anyway. I bought such good things as coffee (which I don’t drink anymore) to paper plates and pancake mix. Then after I got home I realized I have no syrup so I guess that means another run to the store tomorrow or the next day.
My WV sister is coming to visit me for a week in September. I can hardly wait. We are eating breakfast at home and then the rest of the day we are eating out. We are going shopping in the big mall in Peoria and we will definitely eat at least once at Grumpy Pete’s. Also Texas Roadhouse, Olive Garden and Red Lobster is on the menu.
It is hot and muggy out today and as the week progresses it is to get even hotter. As long as the air conditioner keeps cranking I am in good shape.
The new OSF Children’s Hospital in Peoria opened last weekend. It is a $280 million hospital and is the largest children’s hospital in downstate Illinois. Now that it is opened the Gonna Let It Shine commercial is not playing on TV anymore. That is OK because I still have the song playing in my head.
I was very happy to hear that Debs and my friend P are on their way back to England now. God speed!
Stay safe and be happy!!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
The term "comfort food" refers to simple, familiar food that is usually home-cooked“ according to Wikipedia. We all have our special comfort food. Mine is macaroni and cheese. I prefer it baked in the oven but I will even settle for Kraft mac’n’cheese from the familiar blue box. In fact Kraft mac’n’cheese was the only thing I could cook when Jim and I were first married. Jim was a very good cook and between him and my Betty Crocker cookbook I learned how to cook.
After the trying day I had yesterday I felt like I needed some comfort food.. Not just a little, a whole lot of it. So I carried myself over to Kroger and bought the blue box. I then proceed to fix it and 3 ears of corn on the cob and had a comfort feast. I ate half of the macaroni and cheese and half of the corn. YUMM!! Not only was I comforted, I was full too. LOL
Listed below are the top 25 comfort foods and the recipes compiled at about.com.
I hope you all get to have some comfort food this weekend. For some reason I am not hungry for any more mac’n’cheese for awhile.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Who was it that coined that phrase? Bittersweet was my 220 mile round trip today. First off to the bank to finish closing out my accounts there, then down to the gas station to fill up the car. On down the street to my old beauty parlor. Sherri that I trained from her graduation from beauty school to cut my hair exactly as I like it was on vacation. Sitting in one of the chairs was the librarian who was crabby most of the time. You would have thought we were bosom buddies the way she gushed over me. First words out of her mouth was my gosh, you have lost so much weight. Then on down to the pharmacy where my friend Sandi works so that I could give her a hug.
Then on down to drive past my old home, thus the phrase, you can never go home again. The yard was filled with weeds and clover, my perennials were overrun with weeds. Below you will see a picture of the area where Jim and I had our garden.
Actually made me sick because I took such pride in my flowers and yard. I can’t wait now for the beans to start falling for them. ;-) I hope the tree has bumper crop. Enough of that.
Marcia and I went on to the cemetery. There were several flower arrangements that weren’t there when I moved in April. This means a couple of my friends have taken flowers there for me. We cleaned that all up and put the new flowers there.
Then on 10 miles south to the credit union where I closed some accounts and made arrangements to transfer some IRAS. Then to Arbys for a sandwich and back home here where I went to the credit union to establish a new account.
All in all it has been a very tiring, somewhat sad, day.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
when I got up this morning I saw laundry and dishes to be done and it was sprinkling rain. I ignored everything and went on up the dreaded highway that I don’t like because I had an appointment with my insurance guy. Had to get my policies all in order. My daughter went along with me.
I found out that I have enough life insurance to be taken care of after and enough left over so that my kids can throw a gigantic bash. Funny when I mentioned that to the insurance man he thought it was funny but my daughter did not.
After we got home we stopped at Grumpy Pete’s for lunch. Fried chicken, BBQ chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, noodles, meat loaf,hot rolls, some kind of soup, salad bar and brownies. Of course I didn’t try it all but what I did try was delicious.
Tomorrow my daughter is going with me and we are finally going to put new flowers on Jim’s grave. I hope the rain has cleared out by then. I am taking my camera along so that I can take a picture, hopefully of the toilet that my friend Sandi told me had been put in my old garden area with a ‘humorous’ saying on it. I would like to stop in and say hello to a few people too and then on down the road 10 miles to the south to take care of some business.
It is dark outside again and the forecast is for more thunderstorms. It rained off and on all day long yesterday. At least my car was clean this morning.
I hope that you all are having a good day. I hope that you all in the east are about to be rid of the miserable heat that has been hanging around for awhile.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
and the temperature has been in the low 90s with almost 100% humidity. Every now and then we will have a brief shower, then the sun will come out. In an hour or so the same thing happens again with an occasional clap of thunder and a streak of lightning. It doesn’t lower the temperature any though.
I have been busy today. First to the drug store for prescriptions then over to the County Market for a few things. I don’t like County Market as well as I do Kroger but it happens to be across the street from where I get my scripts filled so I usually hit there afterwards. The grocery stores are so handy here that I find myself grocery shopping just to kill time. lol My freezer is full and so is the cupboard so come on over, there is plenty to eat, not that I cook all that often.
I have a couple of doctor appointments looming on the horizon. I lucked out on one as one specialist comes here for appointments once in a while. That means that I won’t have to go to the dreaded bigger city and I can go by myself here in town. That was good news for me and so far I have been able to get lab work etc. done here.
I think we are getting ready to have another shower as it has gotten very dark outside again. It is a good thing I am a touch typist or I wouldn’t be able to know what I am typing. I just heard some more thunder so I am getting off this thing.
Monday, July 5, 2010
and I really don’t like Monday holidays. They are OK when you are working but after you are retired they are really a pain in the wazoo. I don’t know quite how to explain it. They just mess up the whole week and I don’t like my week messed with.
It is hot and humid again, not getting below 75 degrees last night. The air conditioner is back running non-stop again. I keep it set on 78 and it rarely shuts off.
My car is mad at me. For the first time since forever it is having to endure the relentless sun and the onslaught of the birds. Speaking of birds, I see many different ones in my front yard around the huge oak tree.
I have noticed many different kinds. They seem to interact nicely with the many squirrels that live in the tree. The squirrels haven’t bothered my flowers yet as they did at home, constantly digging them up as they were burying the bounty they were storing for winter.
I watched the fireworks on the Hudson River last night. They were awesome as was the music. I also watched part of the Boston Pops 4th of July celebration. I did all of this without having to leave my easy chair.
I always thought when I was young that the 4th of July signaled that summer was on the downward swing and it would soon be autumn. I would give up tanning then as I would be brown as a berry. (I wish I had known then the dangers of tanning.) As I grow older I think that more strongly than ever. Here I don’t have any preparations to make as I anticipate the coming of autumn and then winter. I really miss having a garden and working outside.
I thoroughly enjoyed mowing the lawn and just walking across the alley to chat with my old neighbor. She has been in the nursing home for the last 3 years suffering from neuropathy. She called me a few nights ago. I marvel at how she stays so upbeat and positive about life. She has been to the Mayo Clinic for new treatments and she was so proud when she told me that she can now stand by herself for 2 and 3/4 minutes. Made me feel really small, thinking of my aches and pains.
You all have a good week. Stay safe and be happy!
Friday, July 2, 2010
I just finished transfering over another month of retro posts from spaces that I want to save. I have one more month to do and then I will be finished with that.
Since I cleaned thoroughly yesterday most of today I just piddled around.
I hope you all have a spectacular weekend.
Jim is home again. His blood counts are all up. The doctor told us today that he can do whatever he wants for the next 2 weeks. Then on Oct 10th we go in the hospital for more chemo.
Thank you all for your comments and prayers. I will be able to visit a few of you tonight and I will visit everyone tomorrow.
Last Friday Jim was admitted to the hospital. He has had 6 units of blood and several potassium packs (whatever that means). I am home long enough for a change of clothes. I am hoping that he gets to come home tomorrow.
I am sorry I missed Lottiemae's birthday and I am thinking of Carole today as we share a birthday.
Thank you again everyone for the thoughts and prayers.
Yesterday we saw the oncologist again. All of Jim's counts are at rock bottom. I have been giving him the nupogen shots everyday for the last 5 days. He has 2 more of those shots. He got procrit in the doctor's office.
The doctor explained the chemo that he had given to Jim. He called it 'Salvage Chemo' or last resort. He said it was the strongest regimen that he gave, I looked it up on the Internet. I found one study that had 86% of the patients who had Salvage Chemo for lymphoma had some type of remission. The doctor told us 50/50. It is hard to keep our spirits up and be positive. I have to be positive!!
It was chilly last night and the high for today is to be in the 50's. I love the fall of the year. The trees are turning (except for the ones the Japanese beetles defoliated). I still haven't finished removing the bean vines from the fence in the garden. That is on my 'to do' list.
Beautiful day today. Sunny, breezy and about 84 degrees. It would have been a good day for yard work. I have winterizing I have to do (drain the water hose and put it up, etc.) I am waiting to ask our neighbor for a hand with that. Our son stopped by to see his dad today and brought him a birthday present.
Our daughter was here yesterday. She helped me defrost the freezer in the garage. A pretty nasty job. I didn't realize how much stuff was in there. I found 2 turkeys and gave one to our neighbor that helps us so much. I want to use all of the meat out of it and unplug it. Our power company, Ameren CIPS, is raising our rates 45%. And...we really don't need it as for the last 6 months we have eaten over half our meals at the hospital. ;o)
M. also planted grass seed for us on the front lawn where we got our new curb. We really appreciated all of her hard work.
Next Thursday the 21st is Jim's birthday and the 25th is mine. I hope we are able to stay out of the hospital through those days anyway. I would like to have an ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins. I used to like DQ ice cream cakes but they have gotten so stingy with the filling it is just like eating hard DQ.
I probably won't be posting nearly as much as usual. I am totally worn out, brought home to me full force these last few months.
Jim slept fairly well last night. This was good because the night before neither one of us got any rest.
Stay safe everyone.
We got home last night about 5PM. Jim had a fairly restful night. He ate good at home today. I guess he is used to my cooking after over 50 years. lol
He was relatively pain free today and I had a chance to mow the lawn. Our daughter is coming to visit him tomorrow.
The corn is turning brown and I imagine the farmers will be in the fields harvesting within the next week or so. The soybeans are yellow, so in 2 or 3 weeks they will be harvested also. What amazes me so much is the fact that summer passed us by. We didn't get to the UI flower beds this year. They are always so beautiful.
This is day 5 of the chemo treatments. Jim is on the last treatment that should finish tomorrow morning at 10AM. He is having a lot of pain which they are having a time controlling. He is not eating. Today I took him peanut butter and crackers from home which he thought tasted better than the food he has been getting.
The insurance company will pay for the shots minus a $400 co-payment. I will start giving them to him on Thursday.
I don't know where the time has gone. I turned my head and 6 months have passed.
Betty, no I am not getting restful sleep. It is more like nightmare type dreams. I know that you and Hope and Barb understand the hopelessness I am feeling now. It is a comfort to me to read the comments on my blog from all of my blogging friends. Thank you!! each of you! Carole, my faithful friend, I appreciate you stopping by to pray with me.
Jim finished day 3 of the chemo. He is not doing as well as I had hoped. Yesterday he had a cat scan. We talked to the doctor today. He told us that the lymphoma was definitely there. Well, Dear Lord in Heaven we knew that.
He said that he had a 50/50 chance of making it. So far (this is the third set of chemo treatments in the last 2 months) there has been no improvement. That is not to say that it couldn't turn around because there is a 50% chance that it can.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and hugs. Miss Gwen a special "Thank you" from Jim. I would ask if you would all continue to remember Jim in your prayers.
Thank you all for the thoughts and prayers for us today!
UPDATE: Jim had his first day of chemo today. He will be in the hospital for 5 days and should be finished with the chemo on Tuesday. The lungs were clear which was very good. We had a wonderful chemo nurse today, D. We have had her before. She gave us a detailed description of what will happen for the next 5 days. There was some pep talk included too. We both feel more optimistic now. He will have some kind of shot (I can't read the doctor's writing on the prescription) that I will have to give him for 7 days when we come home. These require prior approval from our insurance company which we may or may not get. The 7 shots cost $2,190.90. Praying a big prayer that the insurance company comes through for us.
I was too stressed when we got home yesterday evening to update my blog.
Jim will be going in the hospital Friday morning for 4 or 5 days of aggressive chemo. The oncologist said "This is tricky. Nothing seems to be working and I am going to have to figure out a whole new program." He said he would begin with an X-Ray to make sure the pneumonia is totally cleared up.
The weather is still pleasant today. Jim doesn't feel like riding his rascal chair or sitting on the porch. I want to get the lawn mowed today. Then it should be OK until we get home from the hospital.
On the lighter side, I am not pleased with the way the Young & the Restless is moving along. It seems like every character on the soap has developed a whole new personality. This is taxing my brain. I am even starting to like Gloria??
Wednesday, but who's counting...
I woke up this morning to 50 degrees. The temp is supposed to climb to the 80's by afternoon. Right now it is beautiful though.
Jim did not have a restful night. I called the oncologist's office yesterday afternoon to see if we could get him in today. Our appt is for 3:30PM. I will give an update when we get home.
My brother called us from my sis's home in WV this morning. They are having a great time. I understand he made them all an omelet for breakfast. I'll have ham and mushrooms in mine. ;o)
I was reading Carole's blog this morning. It was all about things she has learned. Lots of food for thought there. Take a minute and stop by to read it if you get a chance.
Me? What have I learned? Just sitting here thinking about it I would have to answer, not a heck of a lot for as old as I am. I am learning daily that I have a lot of bad habits I should try to break. I have learned I am not at all patient. I really need to work on that.
I have learned that if I don't see about fixing lunch we won't have any. LOL
Tuesday, I think...
I don't like the Monday holidays. I've stated that before in a blog. They were great when I was a working gal but now they are just a pain.
The weather was beautiful again yesterday. I cleaned the house and worked in the yard a little bit. I knew it too because last night every bone in my body hurt.
Jim doesn't seem to be making much headway. We see the oncologist on Friday. Both of us are worried about that.
A note for my sis in WV and my brother who is visiting her. Wish Jim and I were there!!
The trees are starting to turn and because of the dryness right here in our area some leaves are falling prematurely. Jim and I will be another year older this month. A dear blogging friend, Carole, celebrates her birthday on the same day I do. Lottiemae celebrates on the 22nd. Carole has got a party all planned for us.
I am not doing anything today except sit and visit with Jim as I overdid yesterday.
Wishing everyone peace of mind.
SUNDAY MORNING COMING DOWN...
What a beautiful day it is here. Upper 70's, and a slight breeze.
Jim felt better this morning and he wrapped up (it was in the 50's when we got up) and sat on the porch for awhile. He then thought Kentucky Fried Chicken sounded good so I drove us 10 miles south and picked up their legs/thighs family meal. We have enough leftovers for another meal or two.
He is still not eating a lot, but I, nervous wreck that I am, am eating enough for both of us. All of this activity has worn him out and he is resting. As soon as I get off the computer I am going out to work on the garden again.
Our daughter and son-in-law came to see us yesterday. This cheered Jim up. Our daughter helped me dig up some hostas that I have been wanting to get rid of for some time.
I hope it is a beautiful Sunday where ever you are. God Bless You All!!
Jim went back in the hospital yesterday. He had 2 units of blood. This morning the oncologist told us that the chemo was causing his kidneys to fail. He will probably start on dyalisis tomorrow. The kidney specialist saw him this morning and said it was a no win situation. The chemo is causing kidney failure and without it the lymphoma wins. We have some tough decisions to make right away. I am home to change clothes and repack my bag so I probably will not be back online for a few days. We are grateful for all of your prayers.
Things are not going so great in our little bitty world.
Sunday Jim fell in the kitchen. I had turned my back for just a minute as I was putting food on the table. My heart stopped when I heard the thud. Of course I couldn't get him up so I called my neighbor next door. She came over and called her minister who lives next street over. He was having company and 3 strong men came over and got Jim back up on the chair. Thank God there were no broken bones. It just brought home to me, what am I doing? Can I do this all by myself? I don't know.
Tomorrow we go to see the oncologist. Jim has not been eating or sleeping well. I will not be surprised if he is back in the hospital tomorrow night.
Jim saw the oncologist today. His blood count was good. We will get the results of the blood chemistry tomorrow. If everything is ok he will go in the hospital next Monday Oct 16th for more salvage chemo; beginning on Monday and finishing on Saturday Oct 21st.
A reprieve for a few more days.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.
Last day of freedom..
This is it, Monday, October 9, 2006. Our last day of freedom. The last two weeks have been good, we have been able at times to forget all of the bad stuff and concentrate on the good.
Tomorrow we see the oncologist and if the blood counts are ok there will be more chemo this week.
Yesterday Jim didn't feel good and had some pain so I know it is time for more chemo. Every time though it gets harder for both of us.
We are still enjoying beautiful weather and the trees are turning fast now. Our forecast for Thursday is calling for rain mixed with snow with a high in the 40's. YUK!!!
Further update tomorrow evening if possible.
I have had my blood pressure med's increased. I hope it works. I can't take so much of the Ativan. It makes me feel like I am in la la land and I can't function. As a caregiver I have to pass on la la land although it was tempting to walk around in a fog and not be constantly stressed. I see the doctor again in a few weeks after lab work.
Jim felt a little better today. The sad thing is he will feel a bit better each day and then BAM more chemo next week. We are being cautiously optimistic and praying a lot.
Our first week is gone. Jim still hasn't enough strength do anything major that he wants to do. His biggest accomplishment this first week has been to walk to the corner and back. He has taken several rides on his rascal.
It is another warm, sunny day in the upper 80's. I uncovered the AC yesterday so that we could turn it on as it was in the 90's.
I have another appt with the doctor tomorrow. This is with my doctor. Even with all of the meds and anti-anxiety med my blood pressure is still well over 200. I am waiting anxiously for that appt.
I am still cooking every day a full meal at noon hoping to build Jim up a bit. My appt tomorrow is at 1130 so I won't be able to cook tomorrow.
I'll post an update to my doctor visit tomorrow.
Another beautiful day. It is 82 degrees right now. Jim helped me and we got the water hose ready for winter. Then he showed me how to cover just the top of the central AC.
We rode to Meijer for ice cream as Jim has been having a shake every day. I noticed a lot of Halloween decorations out with lots of pumpkins. Kind of made me hungry for a piece of pumpkin pie. I like to make my own because the spice in the pies you buy make me barfy.
I hope you are all having a great weekend!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
a brand new month begins today. A month of new hopes and dreams, family and friends to cherish, and just enjoy being alive. The weather has been absolutely perfect for all of this week, highs near 80, low humidity and in the 50s at night. It just doesn’t get any better than this.
This past month has been a busy one for me. I have been busy still finding my way around town. I still hate going downtown and I will not do that unless it is absolutely necessary. I still don’t like Rt 29 as the traffic on it is horrendous. My sister keeps reminding me that I was in worse traffic on 57 and I drove in that for years. Perhaps it is just getting used to something new and I will get used to this all in time. I have thought many times that Jim would have enjoyed living here and I wonder why we didn’t move here while he was alive. Then I remember the many doctors he was seeing and I realize that it couldn’t have been.
Anyway, I am settling in nicely. My daughter and son in law have been very good to me. I have seen more of my daughter in the last two months than I saw in the last 20 years. Unfortunately I am farther away from my son in Chicago and that is one of the things that I don’t like. I am planning to start doing some volunteer work this fall. There is a nice hospital here and I am considering the library and the church. Something to fill in some time. If I were younger I would get a part time job. I do enjoy people and being around them.
And now I need to pick up a bit of speed. On the agenda today is a hair cut, a trip to the grocery store and the vacuum and the mop. I did get the dreaded bathroom cleaned so I can mark that off the list.
I hope you all have a really great 4th of July weekend celebrating America’s birthday. For my friends in other countries, come celebrate with us. You would be most welcome.